a mediocre dreamer

i've been away too long.


Where the Love Lasts Forever

Your mercy found me
Upon the broken road
And lifted me beyond my failing
Into Your glory
My sin and shame dissolved
And now forever Yours I’ll stand

In love never to end
To call You more than Lord
Glorious friend

So I'll throw my life upon all that You are
‘Cause I know You gave it all for me
And when all else fades
My soul will dance with You
Where the love lasts forever

And forever I will sing
Lord forever I will sing
Of how You gave Your life away
Just to save me, Lord You saved me.

With You, where the love lasts forever.

it's verging on 4 weeks since i've moved here. all i can think about is how much God has provided for me through it all. if ever i've sat before a meal and felt truly thankful to be able to pay for it, it's now. if ever i've looked at my surroundings and wanted to cry and laugh, it's now. if ever i've been so grateful to meet a friend, it's now.

i feel like i've been running. straying from that one-dimensional korean-american christian bubble, for the better, i'm convinced... but into what? a jaded, deeply self-seeking reality? there must be a balance.

I have come to this ocean
And the waves of fear are starting to grow
The doubts and questions are rising with the tide
So I'm clinging to the one sure thing I know

I will hold on to the hand of my Savior
And I will hold on with all my might
I will hold loosely to things that are fleeting
And hold on to Jesus
I will hold on to Jesus for life

I've tried to hold many treasures
They just keep slipping through my fingers like sand
But there's one treasure that means more than breath itself
So I'm clinging to it with everything I am

Like a child holding on to a promise
I will cling to His word and believe
As I press on to take hold of that
for which Christ Jesus took hold of me

Hold on for life

-Steven Curtis Chapman

julie's here and she brought the sun with her. time to play.

saturday
no sleep
cafe habana
celeb sightings: danny nucci and ivana, the asian girl from The Apprentice
shop
cafe bari
change
stay & libation
celeb sighting: richard jefferson of the new jersey nets
guaco locos at san loco
crash

sunday
pastis
west village
magnolia (so not worth it)
*a distressed guy shouting "I DON'T DENY THAT I'M AN ASSHOLE!!!" at the top of his lungs on the street corner
mass at st. joseph's at greenwich village (paula's church)
downtime
crif dogs: bacon-wrapped hot dog with avocado & sour cream (damn good but it's no top dog)
australian (mmm banana ice cream)
pomme frites
*highlight

more adventures tomorrow. yay.

i've heard people use the word "spooning" a dozen times and a dozen times i've nodded and pretended to know what they mean. taken in context it's easy to assume, but i finally decided to look it up today.

spoon
n.

1. A utensil consisting of a small, shallow bowl on a handle, used in preparing, serving, or eating food.
2. Something similar to this utensil or its bowl, as:
   A shiny, curved, metallic fishing lure.
   A paddle or an oar with a curved blade.
3. Sports. The three wood golf club.

v. spooned, spoon·ing, spoons

1. To lift, scoop up, or carry with or as if with a spoon.
2. Sports & Games. To shove or scoop (a ball) into the air.

v. intr.

1. To fish with a spoon lure.
2. Sports & Games. To give a ball an upward scoop.
3. Informal. To engage in amorous behavior, such as kissing or caressing.

i get it.

and because i'm missing home a little right about now, i'll end with this small tribute:

GO BEARS

stolen from george's blog

wind, i can handle.
rain, manageable.
wind + rain, sucks.

i don't have a microwave or a frying pan so i took my cold pizza and put in directly on the stove. bad idea.

praise God for wireless internet you can mooch off of someone else.

here in new york, i finally have the department store bed of my dreams (well, almost). the kind where the pillows and accents take up more space than your body. hurray, i feel grown up.

what do you mean i don't have thanksgiving or winter break? oh yeah, i'm working. i'm going home anyway. i need some sunshine.


a beautiful day in ny. taken atop kyu's apt building in the solarium.


a clear night.


what it's been like lately. gray and muggy.
view of manhattan from my apt in brooklyn.


the ice rink opens next week at the rockefeller center. how romantic.


saks training:
"when you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always got."


there is a lot of interesting art in the subways.


and elsewhere.


go dodgers and all things sunny in california.

in 2.5 weeks i've...

• visited 5 apts and signed the lease for one
• found 3 jobs but only took 2
• brushed shoulders with topher grace
• gaped at martha stewart walking along our restaurant patio
• missed cocktail waitressing for paul mccartney by one day
• fallen victim to my erratic immune system which made me feel like a train wreck
• spent way more money than i have including $484 for knicks vs. la and knicks vs. miami tickets
• dropped my phone in the toilet and lost all my contact info
• fallen down an escalator in a bed bath & beyond and dripped blood around the store
• seen more roaches and rats than i care to remember
• received my very first stun gun
• forced my feet into 10 minutes shoes long enough that they double in size with blisters
• continued to meet a lot of cool people
• gotten 13 bug bites
• listened to countless hours on my beloved ipod nano while sitting in the subway

nyc is great but at the end of the day, it's still all about california love... and its awesome mexican food.