a mediocre dreamer

I will never be
The same again
I can never return
I've closed the door
I will walk the path
I'll run the race
And I will never
Be the same again

Fall like fire
Soak like rain
Flow like mighty waters
Again and again
Sweep away the darkness
Burn away the chaff
And let a flame burn
To glorify Your name

There are higher heights
There are deeper seas
Whatever You need to do
Lord, do in me
The glory of God
Fills my life
And I will never be
The same again

my AIM profile
Y00Nieb0mber: is lila gone for the weekend?
sUrf c l o u d 9: yah
Y00Nieb0mber: dang, a whole wekend of walking around in ur bra and panties . . . nice
sUrf c l o u d 9: hahahaha i love it!

elicited responses in a matter of minutes
Alfalfa382: put some clothes on girl~! don't be giving people a free showing of your high-quality goods! ;-)
b o y 52: thats just wrong
allykid504: daaats greeaaattt....
allykid504: just don't sit on my bed

b o y 52: i can smell you for some reason
b o y 52: isnt that weird
sUrf c l o u d 9: whqat?!?!?!
b o y 52: not that i could smell you from where youre at right now, but i just took a deep breath and i smelled that lotion you use
b o y 52: whitecastle?
sUrf c l o u d 9: that's the cheeseburger genius
sUrf c l o u d 9: hawaiian ginger
b o y 52: hahahahahah
sUrf c l o u d 9: i smell like a cheeseburger
sUrf c l o u d 9: =(

me: do you like cheesecake?
eileen: i like anything that packs on the pounds

=*) ah, my apprentice.

sUrf c l o u d 9: so who's cute?
theD E R Ftheory: you are sweetie pie
theD E R Ftheory: teehee
theD E R Ftheory: :-*
sUrf c l o u d 9: ahahahaha.. i don't know if that's allowed
theD E R Ftheory: yeah it's definitely a little scandalous
theD E R Ftheory: but let's mix it up a little
sUrf c l o u d 9: you sweet talker you
theD E R Ftheory: just call me casanova
sUrf c l o u d 9: should i swoon and faint?
theD E R Ftheory: preferably
theD E R Ftheory: roaring and grabbing me by the lapel is fine as well
sUrf c l o u d 9: =-Oo my

need to retreat, yet stuck within the confines of my apt. sucks to be car-less. maybe God is trying to teach me a lesson. for the first time ever, i will study as a means of distracting myself from the rest of my life. who would have thought...

i miss band. only those who experienced it firsthand will ever understand the high you get from playing. dang, i miss the chills and rush i got from hearing all our hard work sound so good. i miss the excitement of performing in front of a crowd.

new york city, brace yourself cuz the tickets are booked and we are on our way!
we're gonna ring in the new year fat guy style.

what's better: being called a cow, a whale, or a football player? i like how boys have such fun at our expense.





you boys are so thick. do yourselves a favor and watch queer eye.

"Never allow the dividing up of your life in Christ to remain without facing it. Beware of leakage, of the dividing up of your life by the influence of friends or of circumstances; beware of anything that is going to split up your oneness with Him and make your see yourself separately. Nothing is so important as to keep right spiritually."

-My Utmost for His Highest Oswald Chambers