a mediocre dreamer

I feel so uninspired lately. Sometimes it feels like I do it to myself on purpose. I am a masochist. Depression is my excuse for everything - diminished motivation, reluctance to be vulnerable, pessimism, and rage. I need to snap out of it.






I am forcing myself into my own makeshift therapy. God will heal me through the Bible, inspite of my unyielding resistance. He must.