a mediocre dreamer

a year ago tonight, a friend and i had a conversation that opened the way for a lot of new experiences in my life. i do believe that there's something to be gained from every relationship, but what happens when we manage to screw up God's good intentions? from time to time, i'll look back on my posts and wonder if anything's changed. have i grown? am i doing my part in encouraging and selflessly loving others? if i were like Christ, there would never be a limit after which i'd throw in the towel and walk away... but then again, if i were like Christ, loving others wouldn't be difficult. oh, how i long for the day when i will be reconciled to my Father - a glorified life of no shortcomings, no insecurities, and everything will be as it should be.

i can only imagine...