a mediocre dreamer

i could have done better.

he finally speaks the truth
sUrf c l o u d 9: so you guys are gonna go watch lion king?!
sUrf c l o u d 9: finally! get introduced to some culture
b o y 52: im mr. culture
sUrf c l o u d 9: yeah right
b o y 52: culture of bacteria
b o y 52: hahahahah
sUrf c l o u d 9: can't disagree there

oh the wonderful cross
bids me come and die
and find that i might truly live

andychon
kwan: hey andy, your cage is open
andy: what?
kwan: your monster's free
andy: (zip)
karen: (just entering the conversation) oh, was your fly down?
andy: i was flagrantly wagging around my one-eyed monster.
kwan: (outburst of uncontrollable laughter)
karen: (trembling with a look of utter horror at such a vulgar remark)

my sharona!
long overdue chill time with sharon. browsing the shops. low-carb salad & shrimp taco. sugar-free ice cream w/ not so sugar-free toppings. an open and honest talk. thanks sharon.

recess @ underhill
kickball, football, handball, four square. kwan getting nailed in the head with a gelly ball. my getting pegged in the chest twice. finally doing something active.

marine world fundraiser
a dang long day in dang warm weather. working the sledgehammer game and chatting with wonnie. care bear prizes and special wands. feeding the sea lions with my friend of the day. andy's gibberish announcing at his game. dennis' impossible ladder climbing game and sweaty armpits. taking forever to get our lunch break. finding a new definition for earning our money.

last ficb ever
wondering if the praise in my heart will be just as real without the music. retrospective look into the last 4 years. realizing i've grown up more in this last semester than my entire time here at berkeley. knowing i've learned, yet wondering if i've truly applied anything. fearing the damage i can do to my own life, especially when the predictable screw-ups of a limited college life will suddenly have no boundaries. hoping the lessons will come with some gentleness. appreciating the ppl who often don't get appreciated.

you can't live off of potential forever.
time is the worst thing you could possibly waste because you'll never get it back.
follow jesus.

yesterday's SG
arts & craft time (thanks sophomores!). dips galore. eileen's conversations with herself. having fun jacking her like crazy. elise's artistic abilities. my dang girly frame. getting kicked out by sarah.

last night's game of hold'em w/ hannah, roy, billy, kwan, & roach
first time losing since i started playing. 40 pushup punishment. roy's assortment of punishments: 65 out of his 75 pushup requirement -> attempting to do 100 situps instead but only doing 5.. or was it 3 -> trying to make up for it w/ 20 pullups but only completing a weak 10 -> THEN offering 10 chinese get-ups to finish off his punishment. we made our way down to my apt where we laughed histerically watching him flop around my carpet and re-live his old school break-dancing days. THAT MADE ALL OF OUR NIGHTS.

i'd post the clip, but he'd kill me...

nursery dinner
good food. tips on marriage & raising kids. "happy wife, happy life". ganging up on andy. kook's candor. wondering how i'll ever say goodbye to those kids.


COLLEGE HIGHLIGHT #3
nursery. these kids never cease to make me happy.









(kinda blurry)

my greatest fear of graduating is to look back on college and feel as if i will have accomplished nothing.








"i'm just an f***ed-up girl who is looking for my own piece of mind."

you know you've reached new levels in a relationship when you can pass gas uninhibitingly in front of the other person ;)

manual shift
thank you billy for giving me my first lesson in driving stick! with the exception of the occasional jolts, it was fun =)

next task: move on to 2nd gear.

just to dispel any misconceptions
i DID NOT nor would i EVER make an application to date me. phillip sung, you have reached the pinnacle of my fury. do not proceed to antagonize me if you want to avoid dire consequences.

everyone else: speak the words and i will not hesitate to sock you in the face (only applicable to boys, of course).

this is the malicious work of phillip sung, the kcpc cello player. remember that. fortunately for him, i am a very forgiving person.

Easter: a day to remember God's relentless love and unremitting forgiveness.

faith grows in the tough times. i am exactly where God wants me to be. my job is not to look for that perfect person, but to be the most sacrificial, compassionate, and loving person when God brings that someone into my life. what looks convoluted to me looks straight to God. let go of the things i can't control, but don't neglect the things i CAN do.





for all my planning & expectation, God will always have His way.

there's nothing like good times with sisters to remind you that you're loved and life isn't so bad. thanks small group. painting nails, watching videos, eating, and just being girly is a welcome change from my self-induced complexity.

COLLEGE HIGHLIGHT #2
small group. i love you ladies!

stank
after weathering numerous disgusting punishments thought up by boys, i discovered a new for those late night games: a shot of fish sauce.

on our way home from missions training yesterday, alice, hyewon, jae, christine, and i were laughing hysterically at the ghastly smell of spilled fish sauce in my car. each of us were wondering quietly to ourselves at the source of the initially faint smell (although alice was bewildered at the thought of her hands smelling so bad after eating spring rolls earlier that day), and then it straight up hit us like a brick wall as the car ride progressed. by the time we reach berkeley we weren't sure whether to enjoy the occasional whiff of food-like smell or cringe at the odor resembling sweaty feet.

but dang, we sure did laugh. ah, saturday missions training is fun =)

friday night & chillin in my car reading. loser? maybe... but i kinda like it.